Psalms 13:1 (NIV)
How long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your
face from me?
This
past Sunday, as I was listening to a sermon on drawing near to God, a simple
question entered my mind. God, do you see me? The question is not, God, do you
see the world, or humanity in general? The question is, God, do you see ME,
as an individual. This is the question that King David often struggled with as
he penned the Psalms. It is the question that many of us struggle with
personally.
On one
of my trips to Ukraine, during a bus tour of Kiev, our guide broke character to
share her personal struggle. “Everything is for the masses! But there is
nothing for me.” It is possible for us to struggle spiritually in the same way.
God, from our perspective, everything is for the Church, but is there anything for
me? Am I just a cog in a spiritual machine, or do I matter to you? The answer
to that question is resoundingly positive. Even when we don’t feel it, God has
His eyes on each one of use individually.
Jesus,
addressing the issue of worry and concern on our part, tells us that God is
intimately aware of who we are and of our needs. Are not two sparrows sold for a
penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your
Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be
afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10:29-31 (NIV) Not
only does God see us in the circumstances of our life, He cares about our
well-being. Again, Jesus gives us assurance of God’s personal interaction with
us.
Matthew 6:28-33 (NIV)
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field
grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all
his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the
grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire,
will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry,
saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that
you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these
things will be given to you as well.
So, what
keeps us from seeing God’s activity in our lives? Why do we sometimes feel like
God has abandoned us? There is not an easy answer to these questions, but there
are some clues for us to explore.
One
reason why we feel like God doesn’t see us is that we have taken our eyes off
of God. We allow the circumstances of life to cloud our vision. We set our
sights on our own passions and desires, and when they are unfulfilled, we tend
to blame God for not caring. We feel most abandoned by God when He doesn’t
fulfill our agenda.
Another
reason we may feel abandoned by God is that we have bought into the idea that
God is distant, out there somewhere, but not close to us. I have often heard
people say things like, I hope God shows up. Or, what if God showed up today.
But the reality is that God doesn’t need to show up. He is already present. The
truth is that we need to show up. We need to open our eyes and see that God is
not distant, but that He is an ever-present help in our time of need. As Paul
says, in his letter to the Philippians, Rejoice in the Lord always. I will
say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.
Philippians 4:4-5 (NIV) The reality is not that God has distanced Himself from
us, but that we have drawn away from God. James calls us to reverse our
direction and intentionally come into the presence of God. Come near to God
and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your
hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8 (NIV)
We just
came through the Christmas season. There is a familiar children’s Christmas
song that says that Santa Claus sees you when you’re sleeping, he knows when
you’re awake. If you think about that, it is kind of creepy. But there is a far
more profound person who indeed sees you in every circumstance of life, God.
Psalms 139:1-4 (NIV)
O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
Rather
than being creepy, David sees God’s watchfulness as comforting and reassuring.
We should as well. God is not unaware of what we are going through. He is not a
disinterested bystander. God really does care. So, the answer to the question, “God,
do you see me,” is a resounding YES.
As you
read the Bible, you will discover that we are not alone in wondering about God’s
care. But what you will discover is that in every situation God is very present
and very much actively involved.
Psalms 46:1-3 (NIV)
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall
into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains
quake with their surging. Selah